Milestone

No, I’m not writing a post called “Milestone” because Kyle has done anything that stands out as a bookmark in his development. It’s more because today is Kyle’s 4-week birthday, and my first Mother’s Day as a mother. Stewart presented me with a card for “Mom Prince” this morning, along with a rose from our garden that he cut and put in water in a root beer bottle. Mom Prince is his mother, not me! Oh yeah, it’s me…Kyle’s mom (no South Park jokes, please).

One year ago I was producing and directing a TV show. Okay, so not many people actually watched this show, but I enjoyed the work, my colleagues, and learning something new every day. I enjoyed saying “action!” and “cut” and having that be real and not pretend. I really enjoyed having PA’s who did what I asked them to most of the time (thanks, Andrew!). I loved being a part of making something from nothing, of seeing my work on television, and my name in the credits. I am very proud that even though I worked in reality TV, I managed to avoid the type of programming that gives reality a bad name. I somehow only worked on shows that were meant to bring joy to their participants.

Anyway. Here I am one year later and I am overwhelmingly proud of what I have made out of half of my DNA and 10 months of gestation. I feel like a great milk mother goddess when I can pump more than one ounce of milk from my breasts. I am triumphant when I get Kyle to take the pacifier (it is a skill that is acquired, not instinctive). I rejoice when I get him to take an actual nap. Getting out of the house for a walk, a drive, a visit to the store, a successful trip to Mommy Group…all of these are victories for me. This is what matters now. This is my job, and my boss weighs 10 pounds. He’s very demanding.

Here’s a happy Mother’s Day to me, and to all of you doing the same thing. It’s quite a challenging profession.